Discovery to recovery


Oct 2005, I was in grade XI or XIth standard as we call it in India. I had a nasty urinary infection. I was in a lot of pain. I had to visit the doctor. I thought it was one of the usual infections because of using the common restrooms in school. It was usual thing during school days. I didn’t realise it was going to be different this time. My doctor asked to me to a urine test. The results were out. I thought the usual doctor’s visit, the antibiotics and then I will be up and running again as usual. Apparently not. There was no infection to be treated at all. No virus or bacteria at work. Nothing unusual except one very peculiar thing. My urine was concentrated. I didn’t know what that meant. The doctor wanted me to take GTT (Glucose Tolerance Test). The test was more like my ice breaker to needles, to establish a whole new relationship with needles. I had to drink glucose every half hour and take a blood sugar test every half hour for about 3 hours all together. Fantastic! My sugar levels were ranging at something like 360+. I had no idea what these levels meant. I soon discovered that I could be ‘diabetic’ like they all call it. Anyway, I was asked to go to M.V.Diabetes centre in Chennai to get myself a diabetologist. Firstly, I was diagnosed with diabetes, not HIV. Secondly, I was 15 years old. You don’t show me videos of scary, disgusting and grotesque looking legs and tell me all kinds of things I ‘might’ get. Apparently their idea of preventing people being ignorant to high sugar levels. Nonsense! Why can’t hospitals so big have systematic counseling? Children/adolescents need to be addressed differently from adults. That day, I came home crying feeling horrible about having the condition of diabetes. Not only was I not allowed to eat 100 different things, I was also made to feel like I was disabled. I probably lacked something. I was not enough.

It took me lot of help and many years to figure out that I’M ENOUGH!

I LOVE AND APPROVE OF MYSELF JUST AS I’M – courtesy Louis Hay

So to make your life easy, I think some simple symptoms that will help you

1. Weight loss: Weight loss is a symptom. But sadly I never lost weight. I was fat as ever. Anyway, my point is don’t wait to loss weight if u r suspecting diabetes

2. Urinary infection: Quite possible. Again need be necessary. But check for it anyway.

3. Frequent hungry: This was a sure symptom for me. I would eat well and still get hungry so often in a day and it felt weird even for a good eater like me.

4. Wounds: Wounds that don’t heal too soon is a clear symptom

NOTE: There are different symptoms for type 1 and type 2 diabetes. The ones mentioned here are for Type 2. I’m Type 2 but got it when I was 15years old, again a typical symptom of type 1. But no I’m not type 1.

Now remember, don’t let the doctor tell you two things for a start:

1. Diabetes is a disease. No it is not. It is a condition.

2. This medication is enough for NOW. (which essentially means you are going to go back to the doctor for more in the FUTURE. Words have serious effect on our minds and our health).

With that, even if you have discovered this condition, feel free to be ready to recover because I’m hoping to see you on this side helping me heal as well.

 

I’m powerless over my diabetes that my life has become unmanageable..


It was 9pm today when I got out of my diabetologist’s clinic/hospital. I was clutching my medical file. I walked quietly out of the clinic withย  my friend. He turns to me and says, “I think your doctor was quite mean if you ask me.” I took a second to say anything. I was recovering from something. I didn’t exactly know if it was a shock. Before any words could come out of my mouth, tears came rolling down my cheeks. I was weeping out loud. “I can’t eat anything anymore though I’m trying desperately to get my sugar levels in control. I can only eat fruits and vegetables. I can’t eat wheat or rice.” MY LIFE HAD SUDDENLY TURNED MISERABLE. I didn’t know which direction I was walking in. Oh! I almost forgot. My doctor had asked me to follow the Rule of 1. If I feel like crying about my health then I could eat one chapathi or one dosa or one idly, nothing more at all. Of course, I can drink 6 cups of buttermilk, soup and nimbu pani (lemon juice). I can eat as much as vegetables and fruits as I wanted. I can do all this and take an injection – GLP -1 (not insulin is what I was told) everyday and lose weight. Or I can do all this and not take injection and lose at least 4 kgs weight and if I don’t lose weight then I go on injections anyway. He follows Rule of 1 for food and I follow one rule for sure which is I will not let any kind of injection touch me. NO NEEDLES. No needle of any kind will ever touch me. Blood tests are fine but not medicines especially insulin or anything diabetes related. I have been asked to google on this GLP – 1 because “I’m an intelligent lady” with a tone of sarcasm. To top all that, I think my doctor was just having a really bad day so he decided to take my trip on my weight and fat. He wanted me to publicly display my fat so he made me stand up and pointed to my stomach and reminded me of all the extra loops hugging my waist. Thank you very much doctor it was such a pleasurable visit that I came out crying. No actually I was weeping out loud. I was ANGRY. Who was I angry with? The usual… angry with myself. But why? I was working so hard at getting my sugar levels down, lose weight and get off medicines. But the doctor wants to add more to my prescription. I didn’t like it. I cried my lung out in the middle of a busy road in J.P.Nagar hugging my friend. He patiently stood by me letting me cry as much as I wanted to. It is good to cry. So I cried and cried and cried till we found an auto (that was about 15mins). We found an auto and something strange happened. I was feeling better. I remembered that I had lost 2kgs in 3weeks in the last month only by eating the right amount at right times of the day enough number of times. And of course, I had completely stopped eating rice. I only eat wheat now. I hadn’t done anything else in fact, not even extra exercise. I was not just going to lose 4kgs in 3 months. I know that I can lose 6kgs in 3 months – the healthy way. Besides I’m going to get a good dose of detox that I always wanted but could never have done it because I thought that my doctor wouldn’t approve. Not anymore. 3 months – I’m going to be having great skin, controlled sugar levels, hot body and fabulous health. So I begin my new count down. My latest levels – fasting – 205 mg/lย  Pbps – 265. Not so good uh? I know. But I believe cure is possible. And I’m working at it one day at a time. My first step to my diabetes recovery – I’m powerless over my diabetes that my life has become unmanageable. I have hit a bottom. It’s now time to get up ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

For those who want to know what GLP – 1 is click – http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glucagon-like_peptide-1

It works if you work it:

Right food, right amount, right time – EVERYDAY to keep lose weight, stay fit and keep your sugar levels in control. (so I have been told)

Are you sugarfree? Then have a sweet day…


I begin my day affirming to myself, ‘This moment is filled with joy. I now choose to experience the sweetness of today.’ After 7 years of diabetes, I still believe that a cure awaits me. Where did I begin? Somewhere in Oct, 2005, I was diagnosed with the condition of diabetes. I repeat, “Diabetes is a condition” meaning my pancreas cannot secrete enough insulin. My pancreas has been conditioned to feel so. I was born with healthy pancreas. Over the years, various reasons had contributed to this conditioning. I refuse to agree with anyone who calls it a disease. Having a short sight or long sight of the eye is not considered a disease. It is a condition. Anyway I’m done convincing people who brand themselves ‘diabetic’ instead of considering themselves as people with the condition of diabetes. Having said that, I’m on a journey to find answers for this condition. I want to condition myself back to good health. I have been at it for years. Nothing like what I’m trying now. I have tried a lot of things. It is not trying that has been my problem. My problem has been that of consistency. So here I’m going public with this condition sharing it with the world so I find the strength to do it everyday. I want to make my healing fun by sharing it. Tell the world what I did each day, what I discovered new about this condition, any new learnings, what are sugar levels like, what does the doctor think, are there alternate healing methods to heal diabetes, some new experimental recipes that are working well for me, good food for diabetes, the right nutrition, the right exercise – everything that I try to sort it out. You are more than welcome to talk to me about diabetes, what works and doesn’t. Let’s share. Let’s talk beating diabetes.

If I should get into some fact sheet details then Diabetes is one of the fastest growing conditions in the world. More people are diagnosed with this condition everyday due to the high flying lifestyle, fast food, lack of exercise and HIGH stress levels blah, blah, blah… So finally I’m super excited to be doing this. Blogging about diabetes so I can beat and so can you (if you are diabetic that is :P)

Talk to you soon ๐Ÿ™‚

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